A case of the BLAHS

School is out, summer's here-and I just feel so blah! I do not know why. I can't seem to get anything done around here but the basics. I feel like the kids are running around with their heads cut off-they seem to be fighting alot this week. I know I need to plan my days better, but for some reason, now that I am done with lessons with Aust and Mik, My routine is gone-and I have to start over and I am struggling. The kids have been out of school for two weeks now, and I know I need a better routine. You'd think I would have it down by now. Well, I don't.

Enough about me. :-) My Dad went into the hospital the other night thinking he had kidney stones, only to find out he has a mass on his kidney. That's all I really know for sure and I hate having to wait to find out more. I am not close to my dad. I have always wanted to have a father daughter bond with him, but he is a difficult man. In spite of that, I have this anxious need to know everything that is going on with him, and it just doesn't happen that fast. It takes time to find out. So I am waiting.

I am not emotional. I don't know what I am. Anxious is the best way to describe it, I guess. I will tell more when I know more.

I know I have not been blogging lately. I don't have much to say. Not that there isn't anything going on-I just don't know what to say. I don't think anyone cares if I go to the park, or clean my basement-so I will spare you, heehee. No really, I just don't have that exciting of a life. I am just keeping my head above water you know. I wake up, do what I gotta do, and go to bed. That's me right now. Sometimes I feel like I am drowning in myself. My pitiful self. Ugh.

I plan on trying to have better habits but I have to fight my laziness. My daily routines are way out of wack and I have no ambition to change that. I know that it will change simply because it has to for my family-but I take my time as usual to change it because I am LAZY. Oh see, now I am back on me-what a waste of time.

A better topic-a friend and I did something nice for another friend and we SO enjoyed it!! I just had to share that-I was so excited to hear how happy she was. She had this HUGE home improvement project started that she had been unable to finish for many months now. It was her two girls upstairs bedroom-and the girls were sleeping in the living room all this time. It was a big stressor for her. Well, she went on vacation for two weeks and we cleaned it up, had some men just about finish it, and we organized it. Oh, it was so much fun and I would do it again in a heartbeat!! She was so happy and emotional about it. We saved her alot of work and stress! But I encourage you-if you ever get the chance to help someone out like that-do it. Don't even hesitate! It was good for us-and for the kids. We love you T!! I would post pictures but I am having trouble right now. Maybe next time.

I have to go-it's late. Until next time-love ya all!